Stop all the clocks.
Today was the the first day I’ve felt truly happy in a really, really long time. I was able to step away from myself and things that worry me and really appreciate my life for what it is. To listen to someone who has gone through so much carry on with such a thirst for life is so inspiring. To hear someone wish they had a chance to go back and change things when you yourself still have that chance is heartbreaking, but gratitude inducing. To have someone leave himself raw and vulnerable in front of you is an honor. To tiptoe to the edge of your guarded heart and let yourself fall off is both wonderful and frightening at the same time. But it’s time. I’m ready.
“And memory insists on pining
For places it never went,
As if life would be happier
Just by being different.” (From Summer Storm by Dana Gioia)